Flash back

I left the vbs meeting early today.. i wish i could stay till the end... I was glad i was there
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Christa sat in front of me on the other side of table... she's learning to write Chinese by copying the Chinese Characters on the book... That reminded me of long long time ago... My Mom tried to motivate me to practise my hand writing 煉字.. She gave me $2 as an incentive every time I finished 5 pages of hand writing following some good handwriting exercise/examples. I was motivated to write. but I didn't take the intention of practice seriously. All I wanted was that $2. So I didn't really make any effort during the practice. I did it as quickly as i could... Of course, the practice then didn't help me improve my handwriting at all. ... You see my handwriting nowadays is still so awful! and it's getting worse and worse cuz I don't write! ha... ... Was I too young to understand my Mom's intention? Probably. My Mom got me interested in the incentive as in $2/ 5 pages.. she didn't really get me interested in what she wanted me to do as in practise and improve my handwriting. The motivation was a false motivation. and The motive was a wrong motive....Things done with a wrong motive lose their purpose, not to mention to fulfill the purpose.

How was I able to tell whether it's a right or wrong motive i was having..? How would I know to care whether i was having a right motive or not when i was so young? .. Maybe I have done many things with wrong motives in the past so many years.. which I just don't realize. If i don't realize by myself I believe God will tell and show me in His Time through His own means.

so... I was really happy?touched? (indescribably feelings) to hear about Auntie Wanny's sharing about David. ... I was the one helping him do the workbook exercise that day. I asked him who would you like to tell about God? He was silent for a long moment, staring into something... but I could tell he was thinking... I was trying to help so i asked him if there's any friend at school you wanna tell them about God? ...He's still silent. Then I asked, You wanna tell your Mom about God? He told me right away that his Mom knows about God... after a short while, he told me .. "My Dad doesn't know God" ... He put "Dad" in the box on the workbook.. ... David.. a little kid.. he understands "God is awesome and we can tell others about Him" I don't think he understands what intention nor motive means...I don't think they matter to him anyways. ...

... intentions and motives become irrelevant
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isn't that just love. ?