3 things

I have been super tired today...
On Friday night, I couldn't  fall sleep..just turned and tossed in my bed the whole night...  Last night, I slept till some time (not sure when, but it's still dark outside..) until I wake up from a nightmare.. Then, I couldn't fall asleep any more..  So today, I am just tired and sleepy..  I think I really needed a nap this afternoon.. but I didn't.  I think i should be tired and sleepy enough to sleep through the night tonight.

This afternoon, on my way home, I was driving and stopped in the red light in an intersection.  I looked to the right. Two people were in the middle of the road in the crossing traffic (which was having green light). I realized that some accident might have happen before i got there.. one of them was a cyclist sitting on the road with her bike right next to her lying on the ground. she seemed to be injured. The other person was right by her side and looked back to the driver who got out of car on the other side of the green light. He signaled the driver to call the ambulance. The driver did. I thought to myself.. should I stop somewhere to see if they needed help? and I also thought to myself.. since they had called the ambulance.. and there were other people already helping.. They should be ok... and somehow I thought I could become a burden.. if I didn't park my car properly...  The light turned green. .. there's car behind me.. I drove forward and past the intersection.. I didn't stop on the side of the road.. cuz there didn't seem to be somewhere to park and not blocking the cars behind me.. I kept driving forward.. but I really thought I should get out to see how they are doing there.. I turned to a small street and parked there.. as I walked back.. I saw the ambulance coming.. I was glad that the ambulance came so fast.  I saw there's also cars just parked on the side of the road flashing hazard lights.  They must have stop to offer help..  ....I didn't. cuz I doubted at that moment.  I regret... and I feel ashamed of myself..  How could I have a doubt when the matter is/could be to save a life..? How could I just assume they should be able to handle the situation (although in this case, they really did) ...  How could I worry about myself might become a burden more than the people might need more help? (She might feel safer if more people were there.. to try to take care of her and assure she would be saved.)   .... yea..  a person could actually failed to be saved because others all thought that someone would called the 911...sometimes, action needs to be taken just as prompted. There's no time to wait and see.  Saving life can't wait.  I will know what to do.  .. I am thankful that the injured cyclist are being taken care of.  I am thankful that there are so many people care to help.  I am also thankful.. although I still regret and feel bad about my not taking action promptly... I did learn from it.  



Lastly but not least, Happy Thanksgiving!