too lazy

I think i am just being too lazy lately..
too lazy!

I haven't been going to Sunday school.. these days.. For one, it's the middle of the series.. kinda waiting for another series to start? For another, I had always been late ... and I will probably be late again if i ever go again..? hahaha... like's what's wrong with me? .. being such an unpunctual person.  Maybe I do need some discipline like what Awana Club would do for those who are late.. ?  ...  but.. i don't think I have treated Sunday School too seriously ?.. I usually just went there and listened.. I didn't write any notes... not even mention to review what's learned ...  well.. i did think during the class.. and pondered about God... and His words..  but just not too much about "Geography" and "History" ...?  yea ... a selective listener and thinker.. I am.... but God made the world and time...  well...

I don't do much after work.. sometimes it gets pretty late when i get home... usually i just quickly make some udon.. and choi and fish balls.. put together a small "hotpot" dinner..  eat.. and watch TV...  Now.. my Uncle and Aunt are back from HK.. if i am not going out for dinner.. i just go to their home for dinner.. and watch TV at their place .. and go home until.. kinda late..   .. maybe...  because work is too busy.. i just desire some rests after work... ?

There's a lot .. i know i should do.. and i need to do... but... i am just too lazy...  or I just don't care?... Tell me that I don't care about baking... ?
Tell me that I don't care about my family...?
Tell me that I don't care about my friends... my brothers and sisters.. ?
Tell me that I don't care about church ...?
... I don't care about others... ?
... I don't care about God...?

Not that I don't...
Maybe I do.... and on the edge..
freaking out...