我...

not feeling well today.. so went home during noon...
felt better at 3.. but felt too tired to go back to work.. so just staying at home...

There's a lot at work waiting for me... I have my own stuff to do... some need my help to continue their work.... but I can't help it now... until tomorrow...(feeling bad...)

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life lately seems to be pretty normal.?..
...called grandma last night... and... she said she's not feeling well.. and asked me to say if anything to say... she kept saying that... and I didn't know how to respond and what to say. .. so she just hung on me.
...thought of quite a lot of things that's happened in my childhood... the earliest moment I remember is where I was sliding "downhill" with my feet on a pair of "4-wheel" roller blades (so called "shik keg")...
When i was back to Shenzhen during Chinese New Year....  I visited my old home place... where i was born into .. and grew up in...    That place used to be so big .. to me (because i was small?) .. now it's become so small... old and broken...  People there are different too.. the ones who used to live there have moved... the ones who are living there now... even speak a different dialect...

... thinking of my family... is bitter sweet..
... thinking of my childhood... is bitter sweet.

what about now..

if you don't understand me 平時的我... don't even know what I say is true or not, when I am being serious or just joking...maybe i do that on purpose... maybe i just don't want you to understand... because... i don't want to understand either..

If one day I am completely "naked" in front of you... ... will you ... still..  ...

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