can you .... please...

I don't even have the courage to say this...
"can you please.. not give up?"

Everything... Every time I call my brother or my ar sau .. I will get to hear this song... because this song is the waiting sound of both of their cell phones.

Everything... was the song my brother sang for ar sau during their wedding ... he didn't sing it live .. he recorded it and it was played during the banquet.

Everything... I didn't really pay attention to its lyrics before...

故事裡的 起承轉合 有一些忘記
做了多少錯誤的選擇

原來波折 才暗示著 該走的方向
指引你我來到這一刻

就算 別人都說 我們沒什麼出息
不可能會這樣輕易放棄

Cause You're My Everything
就一個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
不管用多少個明天 永遠從此刻開始算起
你的愛是我的 Everything

遼闊天際 求和相遇 有多少機率
多少煙火 墜落無痕跡

因為幸福 沒有捷徑 難免要繞道
不被看好 越是要走到

就算別人都說 我們沒什麼出息
不可能會這樣輕易放棄

你就是 Everything
就這個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
隻要你說一聲願意 所有的未來才有意義
你的愛是我的 Everything

Cause You're My Everything
就這個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
不管用多少個明天 永遠從此刻開始算起

你就是 Everything
就如這個原因 我會永遠記住這種感覺
想給你 Everything
隻要你說一聲願意 所有的未來才有意義
你的愛是我的 Everything

I received ar Sau's message on MSN ... She told me... she wanna give up.. she couldn't bear it any more... the lifestyle my brother has chosen... and.... she's brokenhearted... she didn't know what to do... she didn't know how to keep holing on... and what she could hold onto... she asked me what she should do..

What should I say? ... I really don't know...

"Can you .. please... not give up... on my brother..", it's in my heart.. but i never said it out...

I couldn't imagine anything ... too afraid to imagine anything...

at the end, I asked to pray with ar sau.. she didn't know how to pray together.. and I told her.. "don't worry.. I would pray first .. and if you felt moved to say anything.."

until the second I closed my eyes... I still didn't know what to say.. and how to pray.. but.. I just let the Holy Spirit to lead me in my prayer... I felt the hurt... the hurt ar sau is experiencing seeing my brother hurting himself by indulging himself in drinking to numb himself.... .. I felt the hurt my brother would be experiencing .. if she gave up on him.... the hurt that God's seeing His lost child ... empty, insecure,purposeless....hurting himself, hurting the ones he loves and the ones who loves him ... afraid of even facing himself...

What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul?

God, please ... can you ... please pour out your Grace and Mercy on my brother?
...
for..Everything...
is from You.