It's a wonderful life

I have imagined how life would be like without me being born...
maybe life would be better for some?
maybe not?

I have imagined how things would be like without me having done something...
maybe things would be better for some?
maybe not?

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but... I couldn't ever imagine how my life would be like without you.
I could not imagine how things would be like without you having done something for me... to me .. with me...

If not for my parents .. I wouldn't even be in this world. If not for Mom's "insistence" and love for me.. and God's love and mercy for me, I wouldn't be in this world. My parents risked their jobs back in that time, and the whole family's welfare to give birth to me. My Mom had an abortion between me and my brother. That's done under the fear of China's one child policy where family would be punished for giving birth to more than one child. However, my Mom saved me.. she convinced my Dad to keep me.. and they just love me and never regret their decision to keep me.. even though they indeed suffered a lot after having me born. (so i did sometimes think. my parents.. at least my Mom's life would be better without giving birth to me. cuz she was forced to go through another surgery like a week after giving birth to me..so she wouldn't get pregnant any more.. her health suffers since then..)

If not for my parents.. I wouldn't be here today.. in Vancouver. Again, if not for my Mom's "insistence" that I should stay.. I would have gone home 3 days after I arrived in Canada. ...

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and you too, Erico and Vivian. Without you in my life, yes. my life would simply different. but how could I know whether I would not have had a better life without who and what I have? I would never know. But. I trust in God that this is the wonderful life He's given me.


and now I believe and know it's a wonderful life because you are part of it. =]
Yes, I could not even imagine my life without either of you.