Birthday

Yesterday was Nov 8th. It's my brother's Birthday. .. I gave him a call around 12am Nov 8 (i.e. 4pm Beijing time) and wished him a happy birthday. He also wished me happy birthday.. He told me that.. sister-in-law went out grocery shopping for dinner she's gonna make for him.. which would be her first time cooking.. ?(seriously? but it is very believable. ha) I asked him whether he knew what she planned to cook, western or Chinese??　He said he didn't know but he's worried.. not sure whether it would be edible or not... ... Around 6 am the next morning (10pm Beijing time) I received a call from my Dad.. he said that my brother asked him to ask me to give my brother a call (because it's his birthday) and my Dad just forgot to do so during the day.. i did it w/o the asking! haha =p

My birthday is Nov 3 and my brother's birthday is Nov 8. Our birthdays are so close. We did celebrate our Birthday together in our childhood.. maybe once or twice.. but I can only remember yet so vividly... the one .. birthday we celebrated together.. at that birthday party, all the guests.. were my brother's friends..well, I knew quite a few of my brother's friends.. some of them were also my friends.. but.. i had no friend, my own friend coming for me... The fact is I probably didn't have my own friend. ... during the party, i basically hid myself.. to a spot where i thought no one would notice me being there.

As I got older and had friends from school.. my parents got really busy with work... for my Birthday... they usually give me money .. so that I could just celebrate it.. maybe have a dinner with friends.. maybe buy a gift for myself... i could probably do a lot with that money they gave me...

in one of my birthdays during junior high, my Dad booked a room in a restaurant for my birthday dinner and i invited quite a few high school friends to go. the food was great.. all the good food you can imagine.. but I remember I was sitting next to a window looking outside.. I don't know I just felt lonely .. i wasn't happy at all..

I don't like celebrating my birthday since then. I do like celebrate friends' birthdays.. but I seriously don't like celebrate my own birthday any more.

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Remember the birthday cake for Erico and me after CCF meeting at AFC? I tried to hide. haha... I remember the look on Vivian's face.. when she presented the cake and I just said i needed to go to washroom or something.. (sorry)

but tell you what, I enjoyed last year's birthday as well as this year's birthday. a few people.. at a cozy place.. with colors.. with music.. I didn't feel that loneliness I used to feel... I was happy. I still feel the happiness when I think of those times now.
Thank you. =]
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