my biggest fear...

Being sick is not frightening for me.
Vomiting is EXTREMELY frightening for me.
It's my biggest fear in life... something that haunts me....
and I am VERY VERY afraid of even the cognitive stimulation of it...

and worse...
I don't know how to overcome my fear...
how do you "find strength in God" when I am so physically and mentally weak?

Do you know that the cherry blossom is coming just outside my house?
I saw them tonight... and I wanted to cry...

Spring is just around the corner....