what are you thinking?

another exhausting day from work...
came home late... almost pissed my uncle off for coming home late .. and kept them waiting for me to start dinner... maybe I should have called home to tell them to start dinner w/o me..   I think i could have been more considerate. ...

I really have the urge to work from home.. tonight... but seriously.. i am too tired to do it...  ..  .. .

after dinner tonight .. spent some time watching TV... after the TV show... .. randomly picked up a magazine to read... sitting on the floor .. I remained silent...  thinking of something, staring into blank...  suddenly, my aunt sitting in the sofa behind me...asked "what are you thinking?.." ..  I was a bit shocked and didn't really know what to say... so I just said,"mo yeh ah.."..  then she asked, "too much pressure?"... "just thinking about stuff..", I replied.    I got nervous that my Aunt would ask me such a question..

indeed... i am having much pressure.. from work (too much to do and stuck.)... from new home (too much to organize and slow....).. from family in China .. from stuff here...
every day I arrive at work.. I think about when I can take a vacation.....
the minute i get down to work.. i know it probably won't be anytime soon..
...or I actually don't know how to use my vacation days?..

I need rest.. but I don't know how to rest... ?...

what am I thinking?

now.. it's probably time for bed.