...

...

 I have so much ... I want to say..

 but..
  ...


 What am I really doing? ...

no body ever wants..

 but indeed.. I feel so torn...  apart..


 this is really tiring... i know i really can't take this any more.. 


 and part of me keep telling myself.. maybe i can handle it.. ..?  is it true?

 I need a state of peaceful mind...

how come whatever I think and do.. I feel so much disturbed..  and my heart is so much burdened?


Please, please ... I just want a clear.. mind.... and some peace..

Father.. please..   can You?... can I?....

....


It's enough for me to be like this ..
sorry.. if I have made you worried...
and thank you for your care.


 although I am still confused... and ...
 still unsure..
 ...

 i will still
try my best.