So So..

It's about being so so.. in the recent while, juggling with many things... and didn't do well in anything..

 I did so so at school.. and from time to time I didn't care enough.. .
At the same time, I seem to have become competitive.. and try to compete in my own group with my group members..
One of the professors brought up a point in a case study.. suppose you are a manager, how would you treat those who are subordinate in position and very talented (more talented than you are)?
Also, C Mo mentioned the jealousy problem in our Bible study too..

I have to admit that.. from time to time.. I am jealous of those who are talented... smart... good at leading...
I from time to time try to compete and try to show that I can do a better job... This is ... just stupid .. i would say.  But somehow I am doing it from time to time.  I have told myself again and again, I am not there to compete with anyone, I am there to learn, learn from others as well.  However, sometimes, I still can't contain myself and appear stupidly proud.  I am sick of myself being that way...  How much I want to be a humble person and I just ain't....I am very disappointed at myself in this..


At Church, I barely have any involvement in anything in the recent while..  and the only thing I am involved in.. Elisha committee... I haven't done my job well either...  It's not a job...   I am not upto what the role is calling for..

For Enoch, I am not giving my best either...

Personally, I am not doing well with my friends either.. or brothers or sisters...or even family...  I have been very absent...

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Everything is just so so.. now I am talking about it.. I think it's not even soso...
Enough is enough..I don't want the So So..

Please humble me God.. make me a humble person.. help me to be a humble person.. Everything is Yours.. and from You.. there's nothing to boast about except You...
Please help me not to be so selfish and self centered...
Please give me a heart that would care... help me to care more of my family... friends.. brothers and sisters.. my Church.. my Fellowship... my classmates.. the youths...