天黑得太快.隨想

it's only 8:30pm... and it's getting dark already..
now, I want the day to be longer. and it will take another year's time...
I didn't truly appreciate it and when the daytime was still long..


I know my skin can easily develop rashes when directly exposed in the sun.
sun screen is a must.. I thought I was prepared. I brought sun skin to the camp. One for face, one for body.  ... However, I forgot to put it on yesterday.. and today.. i put it on too early.. just too careless...
so now .. I have rashes on my neck... on my arms... itching ... and there are 3 types of skin tones on my face.. (normal, darker.. and reddish..) ...It will take some time to get back to normal...

I found that.. the food in my fridge.. usually just stays there and gets expired.. develops molds.. and gets thrown away.. so what should I do? .. stop buying and storing up food?..  If I run out of food and don't feel like going to buy anything... I will just make porridge.. something plain but it's quite a comfort food.. I guess I am just too lazy huh.. haha

I thought at some point.. I get used to become a loner and like to be a loner... but... the sense of loneliness is really no good.  Can I try to fill up my time with activities? ... Then, maybe I won't feel lonely any more?... I don't think so... even when I am with ppl.. sometimes... I still feel lonely...and that kinda of loneliness is even more scary..

I guess.. your heart.. can tell your mind what to think... but.. your mind can't really tell your heart what to feel.. what about your soul?