no fear but Faith?

very tired today...
I am getting neck pain from work...
staring at the screen the whole afternoon trying to find a solution to implement a feature another developer estimated to get done in 2 hours... I still haven't figure out a solution... when I left work.. but I was feeling too dizzy to continue... I am not feeling better ... but I think I am going to bed soon.. Hopefully, I will be able to fall asleep soon..

I am scared.. since I got the job offer...
now I am even more scared... I am scared that I am not capable of this job.... I am even more scared that ... I will have to do this... for .. how long ... I am not sure.. sitting in front of the computer .. all day.. 5 days a week...

I know I shouldn't think about that... I am indeed thankful for this job... and I wish .. or rather I really hope that I can do something and contribute to the company... People are very nice in the company... They are willing to teach...

I really hope that I can find some confidence in myself... and know that ... I do this for a reason... and that God has a plan for me. I need to be patient. I need to get myself prepared. I should do my best whatever I do and wherever I am... I am where I am for a purpose. There's nothing to fear of...

No fear, but Faith?
Hard...

No fear, but Faith!