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2012-01-21T18:44:00.000-08:00

"Blessed is he who has learned to admire but not envy, to follow but not imitate, to praise but not flatter, and to lead but not manipulate"

~ William Arthur Ward

固執...

2012-01-16T13:44:00.000-08:00

新預言書 - C AllStar

燃油被抽乾　河流極骯髒
心裡一個天使在哪方
繁華換饑荒　熔岩撞教堂
再見烏托邦　
看赤子出世　被瓦礫安葬

若我活到多一日　還是要珍惜一日
置身廢墟更需每天發掘
未到末世安息日
還是向理想整裝待發
青春的固執　相信... 相信...

遺傳病加速　孩童在抽搐
佳節想慶祝那樣慶祝
謠言在歪曲　明日便結束
聽棄嬰痛哭　woo...
每句時代曲　亦聽到怨曲

若我活到多一日　還是要珍惜一日
置身廢墟更需每天發掘
未到末世安息日
還是向理想整裝待發
青春的固執　固執的奉信　無限隻白蟻　改變大人物
要用我自己的方法掙扎
無論明日這個天太黑

在最混賬的今日　還是過得多充實
每天有新見識有新怪物　就算上帝也哭泣
只不過信衪要感動我　存在多一刻　對生命固執

要固執地活着。
加油！

Fire

2012-01-12T23:58:00.000-08:00

Do you have a fire in your heart?
If you don't ... pray to see it. pray to find it.
search for it.

When you do. keep it and let it grow, let it burn.
What is it for?... You know.

Do not be afraid.
It will never burn you but ignite you.
and may ignite others.

Believe it. and Believe Him. Believe yourself.
Make things happen!

this moment

2012-01-08T03:43:00.000-08:00

I cannot fall asleep tonight..
I am listening to songs now.. in an music award show.
Music ..at this moment is very soothing.
...
Really grateful that there's music.

Rand.

2012-01-03T23:11:00.000-08:00

Bought myself some kinder surprise eggs quite sometime ago.. just opened the box and opened one of the eggs. Surprise! .. enjoying the chocolate.

My car's engine light suddenly came on during my drive to work this morning.. the the letter "D" (drive) kept flashing.... This happened once right after I got my last oil change. I went back to that oil change place then.. and the technician told me it's false alarm and he reset it for me.. now, it happened again. I wonder if these 2 incidents and the oil change are related... I will visit the oil change place again tomorrow.

I had been quite excited about what's ahead of me.. ... now somehow getting kinda worried.. and panicky? ..

Brother told me that.. Grandma told them she wanted to celebrate her Birthday this year which is 5 days before Chinese new year. I was kinda surprised to hear that because in the past few years.. Grandma didn't even like that we mentioned about her Birthday.. Now she suggested to celebrate her Birthday herself. ... I should be there.. but.. i won't.. ... and lately I am kinda worried that.. next time I go back visit.. she might not recognize me.. ?. I heard that her memory is getting bad.. she's not sure who gave birth to my Dad?..

Recently.. heard about this kid's book 想念你 by Chocolate Rain. (A prestigious HK designer).. reminding me.. 在追求夢想的同時... 不要忘了身邊的人.. 家人.

Unfold..

2012-01-03T00:11:00.000-08:00

I am looking forward to going back to work. haha.. (Is this right? ) =p

Thinking of 2012... It 's gonna be a year full of opportunities, challenges. Those are exciting opportunities, challenges I can see ahead of me. I am grateful for God unfolding them to me..
So the first and foremost thing I need to do this year... is to stay healthy..
so.. I guess.. I need to excise on a regular basis. ... eat a healthy and balanced diet.. go to bed early to have enough sleep.. yea.. need to fix my sleeping problem this year!

I need to stay healthy..
So that I can be more capable of taking care of or care for those who are weak.. and in need...
So that I can focus on pursuing my dreams..
and.. I can do my best in serving the Lord.
...

There are other things..

I am preparing myself!
My friends.
Are you with me?

shopping after boxing day

2012-01-01T20:22:00.000-08:00

I am not a very good? competent?? capable??.. shopper.???
Yea... it always takes me so long to decide whether to buy a product/commodity/goods/item.. (usually the more expensive the longer it takes).. Finally, I make up my mind to buy it... only to find that.. there's only one in store and it's just got purchased by another person.. That's what happened yesterday when I was in a board game store. I saw a board game I kinda like.. but I still wanted to take a look at the other ones (maybe there's something more interesting?..) After looking at all the other ones, I knew I wanted just that one. .. but too late.

and.. I am looking for a new laptop as well. I need it to be my work buddy and need set up my work station... so yesterday I went to the electronic shops to check out the notebooks. I found one I like. (ASUS, i7 cpu, 6 GB RAM, 750 GB disk space...) It's on sale which seems a pretty good deal.. (though the price tag didn't show its original price..) I couldn't make up my mind when I was at the store... I left and went to other places and finally made up my mind that I wanted that laptop. I went back.. and the shop was closed. It's closed early yesterday because it's New Year's Eve.. I went there again today.. and it's sold out. I asked the sales if they would get any more in anytime soon. He told me.. they would be getting more in on Monday night (tomorrow night.. ) but the sale would end tomorrow as well.. I was a bit curious to know about its original price. I asked. He told me the regular price of that laptop is a thousand something.. I was like .. "oh no.." (the price on sale was $599.) It's such a pity!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think ... I do have a pretty good 眼光。（有眼光）.. so I should be happy about that? hahaha.. Well... I don't really need the board game.. I do need a new laptop. So I will keep searching. Now I have a better idea for what-could-be-gems out there and take immediate action. =p

Happy New Year to you all!

Merry Christmas

2011-12-24T17:10:00.000-08:00

Hey..
Merry Christmas to my dearest friends! =]

Thank You Lord for all the beautiful and wonderful gifts.
Family and friends..
Health and work..
Church and Fellowship..
Passion and love..
...
my life and Yourself!

Place

2011-12-17T09:02:00.000-08:00

"The Fish Gate was rebuilt by the sons of Hassenaah. They laid its beams and put its doors and bolts and bars in place. Meremoth son of Uriah, the son of Hakkoz, repaired the next section. Next to him Meshullam son of Berekiah, the son of Meshezabel, made repairs, and next to him Zadok son of Baana also made repairs..." - Nehemiah 3:3-32

Lord. What about me? Where's my place? ...
Please show me Your will, Your desire for me...
Please tell me.. whether this is the way You desire me to go?..
Please be my guide.
Please give me wisdom to discern.
Please grant me peace, courage and strength.
Please ... help me..so..
I see what You see.
I care what You care.
I love who You love.
..I go where You go.

->

2011-12-09T19:51:00.001-08:00

I have been a little bit down lately...
easily go out of patience...
and .. being a little be ungrateful..
.. at the same time... work has been crazily busy... leaving me no time or energy to... think... reflect..
and I know.... I am .. bad..

Yesterday, before going to Huens for the CCF reunion.. I was at my car..praying for a peaceful heart... and a joyful heart. I guess.. my prayer was answered? ... I think thou I went a bit over the top? hahaha... (I didn't drink before going to the reunion.)

I enjoyed the gathering, glad to see everyone. =] I enjoyed the food... i think that's like one of the few times... i was eating while everyone's eating.. cuz I usually stop eating while others are still eating? ... I enjoyed the game and the scriptures sharing... and praying together. and still pondering on the scriptures...

and my heart is much more peaceful now..
Thanks God.

P.S. Thank you Viv for organizing the reunion. =]

2011-12-07T23:16:00.001-08:00

"Daring ideas are like chessmen moved forward; they may be beaten, but they may start a winning game." ~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Nov 15

2011-11-15T22:53:00.001-08:00

Be secure. If you allow your insecurities to get the better of you, you'll be inflexible ... and you cannot grow without change. - John C. Maxwell

He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ. - Philippians 1:6

random

2011-11-13T19:16:00.001-08:00

couldn't fall asleep last night..as usual?... just worse.. feeling more tired.. being alone sometimes.. makes me feel lonely...but it's also necessary..so that I can just rest. I am not young any more... and realize I have grown.. feel like more mature.maybe..

working

2011-11-11T17:18:00.001-08:00

on this holiday..it's been a whole day..working on the same bug.. alreadystill haven't found a solution.. this is indeed frustrating.. deadline for the release was supposed to be yesterday.. and i discovered this bug yesterday as well.. dead deadline is Monday..have been working so hard lately... like a bit crazy.. kinda like a workaholic which I don't want to become.. now..i am hungry..i wanna go home.. it's cold in the cubicle..it's only me here.. i think i can stay longer.. but just that my head is getting dizzy .. anyways, continue. until it's fixed.

Your Love

2011-11-06T19:37:00.000-08:00

Your Love - SOP

Time to Love

2011-11-05T19:00:00.000-07:00

Perhaps... sometimes, I do or say things that hurt. ..I don't even realize.. because I put myself first... where I only see myself... see myself "bigger" than anyone else.. and anything ..
Sometimes.. I do or say things that hurt... I know.. but I just do.... because... I think I am entitled to do it cuz I am being hurt first.
...
me... a person who's incapable of loving... but talking about love all the time?..

I seem to hear that ..Heavenly Father is saying... "You must put down your emotional baggage.. Let go.. You must do ... so that I will send you and you will be able to do the work for me."

You believe in me.
I shall believe in myself.. because..
I believe in You. Thank you Father.

Time to love

2011-11-03T23:21:00.000-07:00

a song I liked.. and love.

Time to Love
作曲：Deakin Ng 作詞：Deakin Ng 編曲：Denise Ng
主唱：Kathy Wong

聽

2011-10-29T22:37:00.000-07:00

Never thought too much about the Chinese word of it... until heard it from the radio today..

Besides an ear (耳), there's also a heart in it. One heart (一心). (the simplified version 听... has really lost the meaning of it..)

Listening is not just a skill.
You will understand someone only when you listen by heart.
Of course...
and I am learning.

瑕不掩玉

2011-10-29T00:33:00.000-07:00

瑕不掩玉 - 瑕：玉上的斑點。比喻缺點掩蓋不了優點，缺點是次要的，優點是主要的 (~a definition from a random webpage)

Actually, I heard this phrase from TV.. and found the meaning of it more intriguing ... and inspiring.

瑕不掩玉 - "雖然有瑕疵卻不失其價值"

Although it's something I think I already know... when I really think about it... It means much more than what I thought it was.
...

Criticism...

2011-10-20T13:28:00.000-07:00

“Criticism is something you can avoid easily—by saying nothing, doing nothing and being nothing.”
~ Aristotle

Criticism is nothing to be afraid of.. but something to learn from.
However, constructive criticism will be much more appreciated.

=]

wah lala (working.. too hard.. back aches.. neck stiffens.. and brain stuffs up.. )

Home..

2011-10-14T19:57:00.000-07:00

It's been a busy week...
and I am home.. resting. Glad it's Friday..
I think i am just tired... my brain didn't work well today.. kinda stuffed. I think it's start refuse to work any more.. haha..

Working hard is part of the duty/responsibility.
There's the sense of accomplishment and being useful and helpful...

I do wish ... after all this.. there's something more.
Sometimes.. after a day of hard work.. I do wish.. there's someone I could talk to.. or just be with...
Sometimes.. after a long day of work.. I do wish...

I am glad.. I can write here... and know that there's someone who will read it... right?..
so.. I am talking to someone.. although not face to face.
It's all good.

Been sneezing a lot today... hope that I am not getting sick...
It's getting cold.. Keep warm.

Have a nice weekend!
Life is good. Add oil!

Insomnia III

2011-10-10T19:27:00.000-07:00

falied...
tiredness and sleepiness doesn't help with a good night sleep.
and this has become a bit scary.
ok.

I will start today. Exercise and keep exercising!

3 things

2011-10-09T20:53:00.000-07:00

I have been super tired today...
On Friday night, I couldn't fall sleep..just turned and tossed in my bed the whole night... Last night, I slept till some time (not sure when, but it's still dark outside..) until I wake up from a nightmare.. Then, I couldn't fall asleep any more.. So today, I am just tired and sleepy.. I think I really needed a nap this afternoon.. but I didn't. I think i should be tired and sleepy enough to sleep through the night tonight.

This afternoon, on my way home, I was driving and stopped in the red light in an intersection. I looked to the right. Two people were in the middle of the road in the crossing traffic (which was having green light). I realized that some accident might have happen before i got there.. one of them was a cyclist sitting on the road with her bike right next to her lying on the ground. she seemed to be injured. The other person was right by her side and looked back to the driver who got out of car on the other side of the green light. He signaled the driver to call the ambulance. The driver did. I thought to myself.. should I stop somewhere to see if they needed help? and I also thought to myself.. since they had called the ambulance.. and there were other people already helping.. They should be ok... and somehow I thought I could become a burden.. if I didn't park my car properly... The light turned green. .. there's car behind me.. I drove forward and past the intersection.. I didn't stop on the side of the road.. cuz there didn't seem to be somewhere to park and not blocking the cars behind me.. I kept driving forward.. but I really thought I should get out to see how they are doing there.. I turned to a small street and parked there.. as I walked back.. I saw the ambulance coming.. I was glad that the ambulance came so fast. I saw there's also cars just parked on the side of the road flashing hazard lights. They must have stop to offer help.. ....I didn't. cuz I doubted at that moment. I regret... and I feel ashamed of myself.. How could I have a doubt when the matter is/could be to save a life..? How could I just assume they should be able to handle the situation (although in this case, they really did) ... How could I worry about myself might become a burden more than the people might need more help? (She might feel safer if more people were there.. to try to take care of her and assure she would be saved.) .... yea.. a person could actually failed to be saved because others all thought that someone would called the 911...sometimes, action needs to be taken just as prompted. There's no time to wait and see. Saving life can't wait. I will know what to do. .. I am thankful that the injured cyclist are being taken care of. I am thankful that there are so many people care to help. I am also thankful.. although I still regret and feel bad about my not taking action promptly... I did learn from it.

Lastly but not least, Happy Thanksgiving!

Work..

2011-10-05T23:52:00.000-07:00

Work gets busy..
no time to hea...
running behind schedule.. haha

it just happened so suddenly?
New tasks... assigned ....
The things that had piled up (as low priority) finally come back and get the high priority.
and the maintenance and ongoing internal support (which may caused by not enough documentation ppl can refer to... so they have to turn for help)...
...

need to plan for tmr's work..
need to be more proactive.
and now.. need to rest.

Before sleep

2011-10-03T23:39:00.000-07:00

Wine + Ice cream.

Not bad.
Would they help with my sleep tonight?
will see.

eat or sleep?

2011-10-02T18:14:00.000-07:00

about this question...
what would you choose to do when you are both hungry and sleepy? eat or sleep?

I chose eating.. now. cuz I can't fall asleep... =(

I am very tired and sleepy...
Even if i could fall asleep now... i would be awake again tonight... and that would just be too bad.

double "booked"?

2011-10-01T20:45:00.000-07:00

Sometime in September, I registered some bread courses that are gonna take place in October. Then, I just forgot about the dates.

Today is October 1st. So i just went to the school website to check the course schedule. One of the courses I registered will be on Oct 5 and 6 (this coming Wednesday, Thursday).

I was like... @_@ What?!
I was so "surprised" I am "double" booked? like never happened to me and finally it did?
no...
It's gonna be the special talk about the revolution of 1911..on Wednesday..
and Church meeting or Enoch's meeting on Thursday...
I want to attend.

The registration policy is any change of dates need to be requested at least 5 days before the class.. and I am now like 3 days away from the class date...
but anyways, I gave it a try. I emailed the school admin to request for a change of date. (basically to a later course date available). In a few minutes, i got the response. "... You asked so nicely, how could I not change the dates for you!!!..." She's being very nice!

It's great now. no more unrealized "double booked".
and should be more careful about the dates.. in the future.

Insomnia again..and thoughts..

2011-10-01T04:44:00.000-07:00

Maybe a little bit ...
so.. having insomnia again...

It's good that it's weekend now. At least I don't have work tomorrow and won't be dozing off in front of the computer screen.

sometimes.. just really wanna slow down ... a bit .. and hope that time can "slow down" a bit also.
now it seems to be the time...

day and day don't just go by..
you know what you are living for...
you try to spend your time wisely and live every moment to the fullest..
you try to do well in everything ..your work, your family... your serving God.. (or at least trying your best)
you try to cherish the people around you... especially the ones who are most important to you...
...
everything seems to be "perfect"..
what more can you ask for?...

yea...
if you can slow down... if time can "slow down" a bit...
do you realize... maybe..something important.. is actually missed out... ?
...

insomnia.. we are not too strange to each other..
you know me.
I don't want you.. but maybe I do need you sometimes... ?
late into the night.. quiet.. alone...nothing much to do...
clock clicking...
...

唯有耶穌,祢是配得

2011-09-26T01:11:00.000-07:00

Can't sleep..
I think listening .. to some hymns will help.

唯有耶穌+祢是配得 - SOP #16

I feel the Peace now. Thank you Lord.

辛亥頌

2011-09-25T17:23:00.000-07:00

"華喬乃革命之母"...
What about today, in this era?
What can we do for our homeland?
...

辛亥頌 - 韩磊,
movie （《辛亥革命》主题曲

千年的迷霧深鎖長路
　　生死向前途慷慨奔赴
　　隻是那一刻訣別時刻
　　風起瑟瑟
　　且把我的夢葬在黎明
　　沉睡的黑夜才會蘇醒
　　永遠不要問去年今生
　　隻見大雪紛紛

　　手足同盟血洒從容
　　但願這一片殷紅
　　也能感動
　　我們后千萬眾
　　手足同盟我心從容
　　但願這一去蒼茫
　　愛的微光
　　在身后讓人間照亮天堂

mmm..?

2011-09-25T00:45:00.000-07:00

yea..
start to wonder again..
what am I good at?..

nothing really? haha..
not good at speaking..
not good at what I do at work..
not good at ...
not good at guitar
not good at
not good at caring for people..
.. not good at a lot of stuff...

I am a rather average person.

but I am not living an average life.
Life with God is beautiful and extraordinary.
He's shaping me into a person He's desired for.
I will follow His lead.

mmm.. I think i do know what I am good at.
I am good at dreaming!
hahaha..
yea. I believe He will let me know what this is for. =P

Go Go Go!

2011-09-22T20:31:00.000-07:00

Winter is coming.
Time for a fresh hair cut! =D

doing / undoing

2011-09-21T20:39:00.000-07:00

To think too long about doing a thing often becomes its undoing.

- Eva Young

I guess .. the things you will take a long time to think about probably .. are asking for responsibility commitment.. and risks to take. which thinking too long won't help.

so either stop thinking about it.. or just do it..?

visiting UBC

2011-09-18T20:38:00.000-07:00

Went to UBC today... for a visit.
It's Sunday... so most of the buildings were closed.
It's not as cold as expected..Winter at UBC is usually colder than elsewhere ..? .. it's not Winter yet.

Going back there just brought back lots of memories... people and things...
yea.. I am glad that the 5 years of university life did give me quite a lot of interesting and meaningful things to remember.. with people I appreciate and am grateful for.

Thank God for bringing me there 7 years ago.. and Thank God for bringing me there once again.

In quietness and simplicity

2011-09-17T15:39:00.000-07:00

Seems like .. It's been awhile... I haven't had a Saturday as "hea" as today. !
Since I got up this morning... I have been feeling sleepy too. haha..
I was kinda cloudy and rainy in the morning.. now It seems to have brightened up a bit and the sunshine is out. =]
I am glad I can be home and so I should be able to do some reading before going to the Fellowship tonight.

I originally planned to go to the Student Movement Rally 疾風烈火‧靜聽微聲 on Friday night. I thought I would get the 疾風烈火 and miss the 靜聽微聲 (haha.. if that's how I understood the topics on these 2 evenings?).. I miss both now (I forgot the dates in the first place..). I have thought about suggesting our Fellowship to go together on Saturday night..(thinking we all need some fire. real spiritual fire from God to cleanse and stir us up..). I dropped the idea for some reasons.. .. and I think it's just like we aren't getting this.. but we are getting that... not everything but something He has for us. God is everywhere.. in everything we do. Believe what you get is the best for you. The thing is, prepare yourself, be really at where you are, whole body, mind, heart and soul. Open and fix your heart on Him. You will gain the most out of it. I try not to be greedy and 靜心 await for God's revelations and enjoy the Fellowship. =]

Today..

2011-09-15T19:45:00.000-07:00

Bobo's recall is finally done! (after more than 1 year, if not for the reminder from Honda.. I wouldn't remember any more..)
so now... Feel free to pour water in the back seats! haha.. kidding.
They gave Bobo a bath too. so nice. Bobo now is shiny and smiley. =]

and ..I went to parker place to buy Lunch after picking up Bobo from Auto mall. After eating so many 餐蛋治 and 腿蛋治.. I have finally 分得清 which is 餐 and which is 腿.. it's so much easier to recognize them in English. 餐 is luncheon, 腿 is ham. ? or... the other way around?? ... oh .. no... now I am confused with them again... how do they look like... which is 午餐肉? which is 火腿?? I thought I have very well distinguished them just right before typing this.... =(
... so I am gonna mix up 餐蛋治 and 腿蛋治 next time and not getting exactly what I want? .... Why is this so difficult?...

The Light in Me

2011-09-11T17:24:00.000-07:00

The Light In Me - Brandon Heath

My life before You
I was a flame burning down
I was burning out

But You knew me better
For You there was never a doubt
God, since You gave me life
Something was different, I Knew it the instant
You put the light in me

The spark, the shot to the heart
You are the hope that leads me out of the dark
You let Your love shine down
So that the world could see
You put the light in me

The light, you put the light in me
The light, you put the light in me
The light, you put the light in me
The light, you put the light in me

You are the Maker, you tell the sun when to rise
I'm just a house on a hill
But You make me brighter than all the stars in the sky
Keep me from growing down

Cause in Your perfection, I'm just a reflection
So pull me closer to You
I catch like a fire and I'll hold You higher
Cause You put the light in me

I'll raise it high, I'll let it show
From the rooftops down to the streets below
In day and night, You will be known
And all will see
You put the light in me

It's a special day in remembrance of what happened 10 years ago...
It's a also a happy day welcoming baby Tsui #2!
May His Light shine through the darkness.
May His Love bring us true Hope and Life.
...

Looking forward to seeing her and getting to know her name soon! =]

So free!

2011-09-10T17:38:00.000-07:00

I am home! It's such a nice day to be home! hahaha
When i was driving home, I opened the windows all the way down.. and just let the winds blow in and out.. It just felt so awesome! Just let my hair get messy and worry free. =D

Now I can do some house work... continue with my vacuuming. =P
my home smells so good. haha
so bread. ;p

night.

2011-09-10T01:40:00.000-07:00

Oh...
already 1 am.. and I haven't showered yet...
this is a typical Friday night? Super hea? hahaha..
well.. i did make some nice bread dough.. I mean... I hope they will turn our nice. haha

...
A coworker told me today.. one night, she had a dream, where she was working in another place. She got higher pay.. but she didn't know anything there ..and there's not much to do... she felt like useless. So she's glad that that's just a dream. She finds this job best for her although it's always stressful and she's always having long hours of work. She's actually being useful. ... She's indeed very dedicated to her job and customers.. I admire her dedication and attitude towards customers (for their best interest). but sometimes... I do think she's just working too much...

...After all, self worth is not about being useful and sense of accomplishment...
but of course, we are all useful. =]

really.. it's time for bed. =P

I read and prayed this last night.....

2011-09-07T00:22:00.000-07:00

God, give me work till my life shall end,

And give me life till my work is done...

First day of school!

2011-09-06T09:08:00.000-07:00

How much I wish It's still the weekend.. so I could sleep in...

and today is the first day of school! (not sure how the traffic is gonna like?
man.. I miss school! I actually miss taking the bus to school! standing among the students crowd.. and recognizing a few familiar faces.. haha...

I am thankful I have got this job. Maybe I can try to treat it like the first day of work every day.. Exciting and a little bit scary. haha

Good day. !

改變

2011-09-05T20:49:00.000-07:00

改變 - 張靚穎

such nice hair.. haha

放棄無謂的強辯摧毀自我的頹廢
我選擇明確重生機會
一片片曾經的虛偽曾經的謊言裸露在眼前
不管多狼狽不管多危險我都要面對

我說要改變就改變看見殘缺就應該重建
不再糾結再糾結黑暗一面留給自己消滅
美好一天永遠值得改變

誰不堆積是非需要勇氣才能破碎
沒有人可以完美真問心無愧
過去的尖銳過去的頑倔不必再絕對
沒說的抱歉沒說的感謝不願再後悔

我說要改變就改變看見殘缺就應該重建
不再糾結再糾結黑暗一面留給自己消滅
美好一天永遠值得改變

相信有一天渺小的作為 (也許你或我)
會巨大震動這個世界是因為勝過自己的一仗
贏得一切我的改變在改變

我說要改變就改變看見殘缺就應該重建
不再糾結再糾結黑暗一面留給自己消滅
美好一天永遠值得改變

值得去改變

What would you do

2011-09-04T20:44:00.000-07:00

when you are angry at someone
what would you do?
when you dislike someone
what would you do?
when you doubt someone
what would you do?
when..

you know the someone is yourself...
what would you do?

I have been carrying too much negative emotion around lately..
sometimes i really don't know what to say..or what to do...
and I did something annoying... even myself got annoyed...

Should I hide myself?...
just before anyone gets annoyed and dislikes me.. like I do...

...

and...even though I am such a shame..

You love me anyway

好的事情

2011-08-25T20:37:00.000-07:00

好的事情 - 嚴爵

This song was written after the Earthquake and Tsunami in Japan.. this March ..
Time went by very fast... Hope things are ok...

休息是為了走更長的路
你就是我的旅途
都是因為你我一直漫步

想要跟你一起走到最後
但我遺失了地圖
誰給誰束縛誰比誰辛苦
愛到深處才會領悟

好的事情最後雖然結束
感動十分就有十分滿足
謝謝你是你陪我走過那些路
痛是以後無法再給你幸福

好的事情也許能夠重複
感動十分就算紛紛模糊
不要哭至少你和我記得很清楚
愛是為彼此祝福

Just recently thinking... I might need a map too...
and start get going.
add oil.

天黑得太快.隨想

2011-08-14T20:47:00.000-07:00

it's only 8:30pm... and it's getting dark already..
now, I want the day to be longer. and it will take another year's time...
I didn't truly appreciate it and when the daytime was still long..

I know my skin can easily develop rashes when directly exposed in the sun.
sun screen is a must.. I thought I was prepared. I brought sun skin to the camp. One for face, one for body. ... However, I forgot to put it on yesterday.. and today.. i put it on too early.. just too careless...
so now .. I have rashes on my neck... on my arms... itching ... and there are 3 types of skin tones on my face.. (normal, darker.. and reddish..) ...It will take some time to get back to normal...

I found that.. the food in my fridge.. usually just stays there and gets expired.. develops molds.. and gets thrown away.. so what should I do? .. stop buying and storing up food?.. If I run out of food and don't feel like going to buy anything... I will just make porridge.. something plain but it's quite a comfort food.. I guess I am just too lazy huh.. haha

I thought at some point.. I get used to become a loner and like to be a loner... but... the sense of loneliness is really no good. Can I try to fill up my time with activities? ... Then, maybe I won't feel lonely any more?... I don't think so... even when I am with ppl.. sometimes... I still feel lonely...and that kinda of loneliness is even more scary..

I guess.. your heart.. can tell your mind what to think... but.. your mind can't really tell your heart what to feel.. what about your soul?

In the end...

2011-08-03T09:23:00.000-07:00

I just came back from my grandfather's funeral. (I thought I can avoid the 瞻仰遺容 but couldn't... now that image is stuck in my head >.<) Lots of things going on in my mind, here's one of the many...

The pastor gave us a moment to say any thankful words to him. I heard words of regret, due to various things we did or didn't do enough, and many thankful words that should have mentioned when he was still alive and well.

The impact of life being very brittle finally dawned on me. Most of the time, we take things/people for granted. We would get mad of a person just because of a small matter, we would ignore someone because we think that person will still be around for quite a while... To avoid feeling regretful, why not just treat them the way you should, with respect and humbleness? Of course this is easier said than done. May God have mercy on us.

We really have to stop treating people around us for granted, we have to love our family and friends, no matter what, tell them you love them, give them a hug.

So... Viv, Roson, I love you! MUAH~ :D

Too much..

2011-07-30T20:30:00.000-07:00

Too much to think...
Too much to fear...

and..
There's..
too much hurt...

勇敢是什麼

2011-07-27T14:02:00.000-07:00

明天，你好 - 牛奶咖啡

看昨天的我們走遠了
在命運廣場中央等待
那模糊的肩膀
越奔跑越渺小
曾經並肩往前的伙伴
在舉杯祝福后都走散
隻是那個夜晚
我深深的都留藏在心坎
長大以后我隻能奔跑
我多害怕黑暗中跌倒
明天你好含著淚微笑
越美好越害怕得到
每一次哭又笑著奔跑
一邊失去一邊在尋找
明天你好聲音多渺小
卻提醒我勇敢是什麼

當我朝著反方向走去
在樓梯的角落找勇氣
抖著肩膀哭泣
問自己在哪裡
曾經並肩往前的伙伴
沉默著懂得我的委屈
時間它總說謊
我從不曾失去那些肩膀
長大以后我隻能奔跑
我多害怕黑暗中跌倒
明天你好含著淚微笑
越美好越害怕得到
每一次哭又笑著奔跑
一邊失去一邊在尋找
明天你好聲音多渺小
卻提醒我
長大以后我隻能奔跑
我多害怕黑暗中跌倒
明天你好含著淚微笑
越美好越害怕得到
每一次哭又笑著奔跑
一邊失去一邊在尋找
明天你好聲音多渺小
卻提醒我勇敢是什麼

2 things

2011-07-26T18:38:00.000-07:00

After I got up this morning, I tried to turn on the lights.. it didn't work...Apparently, there's no electricity.
I thought of the mail from BC hydro I picked up yesterday. It's a warning letter about my overdue payment.
It says the electricity will be disconnected without further notice if the payment is not received. ... I paid the fees last night.. was that too late?
"ng hai ma? seriously? .." I was a little bit panicked cuz.. i remember that the letter also says the reconnection fee is in hundreds.
I called BC hydro right away... and heard that there's a high volume of calls because of the power outage.. "power outage" ? I thought to myself? and right away, my lights were on.. and i heard the sound of the fridge running..
so.. That's what the "power outage" meant...

After I got to work... I noticed my computer was off....yea because of the power outage too...
Later, as i was walking to the lab to start up the other computers, i saw the coworker who's away last week attending the level 2 first aid training. "Congratulations" I said to her..
she smiled and said to me," ..feel free to get injured."
That made me laugh so hard!

Someone

2011-07-25T20:45:00.000-07:00

When you meet someone ... someday.
要珍惜.

headache..

2011-07-25T00:44:00.000-07:00

I have got the headache, since i woke up from the nap...
what could that indicate?..

Having a diet too high in sodium?..
and yea.. I haven't finished the chicken...
few more days estimated.
...

Hot off the oven

2011-07-21T19:09:00.000-07:00

I think I can be crazy once awhile..

so

..

Wa hahaha...

All for me! =P

when i become lazy..

2011-07-21T00:04:00.000-07:00

Also because the soya milk has gone expired I couldn't use to make bread..

There we go with the Lemon Sponge tea cakes.. (from the cupcake recipe) I skipped the toppings. The cakes themselves are already rich enough. Got to practice the folding technique. not bad.

These cakes are extremely sweet. I guess they could be very nice desserts tho. yea.. something to go with teas.. English black tea?... However, not a lunch for tomorrow... =\

From the previous experience, I have become smarter. I got all the doors... windows wide open during the baking.. no more shocking, crazy smoke detectors beeping in the midnight.

想散心....

2011-07-19T18:41:00.000-07:00

Maybe..

Family...

2011-07-17T23:42:00.000-07:00

When it comes to Family.. whatever I do.. just leaves me with guilt.. cuz ... I am totally different when I am with them than with others. It just feels like I have become a different person when I am with my family... a mean and an ugly self... , so impatient.. ..and bad tempered.....
....Maybe that's just my true self? ..

It's my attitude? ... yea... partly...
It's my selfishness... yea... I think so...
I am cold - blooded? .... Am i?..
...

I love my family.. I think I do. I am trying.. to love them with actions.. but at the same time I really don't know how... ...Whatever I do.. I regrets? ... I wish I could have a better attitude... I wish I could have been more caring and loving... I wish ... Why is it so difficult? ... how come it's just so hard for me?.... What's wrong with me?...
....

Family is such a familiar and yet unfamiliar part of my life.. ?....
Family so far.. is bitter more than sweet...
Family... I feel so guilty..and so disappointed at myself... that I don't love you enough...
Family... I wish i could be a better member in the family..
Family... how can I love you better?....
Family... I hope I can really learn to love you... by heart.. by words.. by action.
Family... would you forgive me for all my bads and ... selfishness? ....
Family.... It's my family...?...
it's my family..

Italian Country Bread II

2011-07-14T00:07:00.000-07:00

The smoke alarms went off because of them?!
Yea.. Hot off stove. Pane Casereccio with sun dried tomatoes and black olives inside

my Lunch for the coming 2 days ! =p

(Good to know that the smoke alarms are working too. haha.. sorry to my neighbors tho.)

Is this all

2011-07-10T09:28:00.001-07:00

Is this all - Van Ness Wu

2 years time

2011-07-07T18:53:00.000-07:00

In less than 3 months..
it's gonna be 2 years time.

Is it time to move on?
move on to where?...

2 years time is what I promised myself?
I said I would give myself 2 years time..
Maybe I just said it for the sake of .... ?

I have never pushed myself hard enough towards a goal..

Am I ready?
What am I worried about?
... a lot.

Is this my way to go?
You would show me. Right?
ok.

海洋天堂

2011-07-01T20:26:00.000-07:00

I watched this movie last night...
It's a story about a Father and son.
Not so ordinary..
It's a story about a single Father who has terminal cancer and his 21-year-old autistic son.
There's fear.
But more, there's love.

In this world,
There are the fortunate..
There are the unfortunate....
There are people who are striving to be extraordinary..
There are also people who are striving to be simply ordinary..

. but.. and....

...If I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing...

I hope .. and I want to have this love
and love.

1:00am

2011-06-30T01:10:00.000-07:00

Today is last day of July, 2011. It's now 1:01am...once a life time moment. second by second.

I am very tired... and my head is a bit light... my eyes are a bit heavy.. my throat is a bit dry...

now it's 1:02 am... second by second.. I hear the clock ticking
still, there's something I need to do before going to bed...

it's 1:03 am... I am thinking ... second by second... I am aging.. not a good thing to think about? but... it's just the fact... and I hope that I am also getting more inside my life by spending every second, not just the age.

...

It's 1:06 am.. I have spent more than 5 min on this post? ...using second by second... doesn't sound like that worth of the time or that efficient use of the time? ... It's ok. .. quantity and quality are different things.

but.. I know...second by second, I am getting more sleepy.
I should go sleep now..

你和我的時光 - 張惠妹

One person

2011-06-26T18:43:00.000-07:00

Loneliness is not an unfamiliar word..
Not just that I know of this word.
or sometimes see or hear about it...
When I was back home during Chinese New Year this year...
One day, my Grandma lying in bed telling me that.. She's feeling so lonely..(living by herself..though there's the maid who's hired to take care of her..) She wished my Mom could go see her... but she might not know that... something she said quite awhile ago might still be hurting my Mom... and that's why. she's not coming?... I was speechless.

...Being here myself.. , I do feel lonely from time to time too ..
Loneliness has been part of my life.

Abandonment is not an unfamiliar word...
But it's relatively new to me.
I found it so cool? that me and my Brother could go anywhere we wanted while we were little.. many friends of us were forced to stay home by their parents.. but we weren't. me and my Brother could try anything we wanted ... and we could hid them so well behind our parents..? stealing.. smoking...

Feeling abandoned has been part of my life? ...

"Do you have enough money to spend?..."
"I will send you more money... ".. These are My Dad's.. words over the phone from time to time.

He's been working so hard... My Mom used to "joke" that,"your Dad's married to his company.." My Mom... She's been working so hard too... not for company but just the money.. and us (me and my Brother)?..

They have both worked so hard.. for me and my Brother over the years.. and how could I still feel being abandoned? ... and how come even though I know they have sacrificed so much .. for us?... and how come even though I know they care so much about us.. I don't feel that we are being cared... ?

How can I ever trust anyone would truly care?...

and this is part of my life?...

... It's ok. When you get used to it.. it will be ok.?

How could I still be complaining when I am living such a comfortable life?
I have so much.. I am so much blessed..

I know.

and There's nothing we could do to undo what's already happened..
but ...

There's so much we can do to make better what's going to happen.
I am not good at it
but...

I will try.
and I know I am not one person.

Wah

2011-06-24T18:05:00.000-07:00

Manager is going on vacation!
25 days !

No one to bug?!

Experience

2011-06-23T20:41:00.000-07:00

I am not young any more..
but I am still too young to understand lots of things..?

It's experience that makes the difference.

Experience makes who we are today.

Beautiful things

2011-06-18T23:44:00.000-07:00

Heard this song on my way home.. beautiful song.

Beautiful Things - Gungor

Saturday afternoon

2011-06-18T17:49:00.000-07:00

so sleepy...
where are you guys?...
... ..

Act: 10:34-38

2011-06-16T07:52:00.000-07:00

Then Peter began to speak: "I now realize how true it is that God does not show favoritism but accepts men from every nation who fear him and do what is right. You know the message God sent to the people of Israel, telling the good news of peace through Jesus Christ, who is Lord of all. You know what has happened throughout Judea, beginning in Galilee after the baptism that John preached - how God anointed Jesus of Nazareth with the Holy Spirit and power, and how he went around doing good and healing all who were under the power of the devil, because God was with him...."

Lunch bread

2011-06-14T22:26:00.000-07:00

yea.. there's no more bread for lunch..
so I made this tonight..


Beancurd Toast

I ran out of bread flour. so I used some Rye flour and some all-purpose flour..
The kneading was different from what's expected.. it was quite sticky.. from the beginning to the end.. mm.. I was a bit worried how it's gonna turn out.. (cuz of the flour..)
well.
...
Not bad!

How Deep the Father's Love for Us

2011-06-14T07:18:00.001-07:00

i love this version :D

How Deep the Father's Love for Us

2011-06-14T07:18:00.000-07:00

i love this version :D

Bored..

2011-06-13T20:19:00.000-07:00

for no reason..
I just feel extremely bored today.. haha

mmm...

laziness' kicking in.
watching House.

No!!!!!!!!!!!!
I should do some reading...
Or some baking?...
mmm...

keep watching TV?
sleep early?...

browse the net purposelessly?...

play PS3?..

..

call someone?..

...

oh.... should I paint something?... which I rarely do. hahaha..

so many choices eh..

yea... always..

I feel like...
...
..
.
I need a plan.
to make things happen.

80之後

2011-06-09T20:15:00.000-07:00

80之後 - Sherman

大人教導用心的工作別太囂
我們沒法相信我要折腰
誕生後只看到生活無聊
還是大時代過了才會更妙
可以去愛盡情地去愛
相信我的心我的心會跳
抑壓要叫悶煩就更要笑
為誰拒絕現實不緊要信過先緊要

不必憂慮若青春的我太輕佻
我們沒法相信世事難以意料
80之後廣告蓋掩了童謠
還是大時代過了才會做回自己了我覺得不渺小

可以去愛盡情地去愛
相信我的心我的心會跳
抑壓要叫悶煩就更要笑
為誰拒絕現實會開竅
痛不緊要我不渺小

或者有些出路少了才會令我大志不少

可以去愛盡情地去愛
給我片刻好嗎我的心會叫
都市冷了地球亦暖化了
為誰渴望日後我的心會笑
活了活了讓我為愛活了
但求美麗存在我的心可以燒
活了活了願你為愛活了
為誰拒絕現實不緊要痛不緊要
記得理想先緊要

"Does man make the times or do the times make the man." ??... All I know is that time waits for no man. Live your dreams! Even the underprivileged, they can. We can.
Love. Dream. Live the fullest.

Psaml 126:4-6

2011-06-04T10:05:00.000-07:00

耶和华啊，求你使我们被掳的人归回，好像南地的河水复流。
流泪撒种的，必欢呼收割！
那带种流泪出去的，必要欢欢乐乐地带禾捆回来！

In Jesus name. Amen.

Shopping Mall

2011-06-03T21:56:00.000-07:00

Went to a career planning workshop some time ago..
and the speaker introduced the "shopping mall" paradigm to us...
It's the new paradigm towards career development instead of the point A to Point B "model".

Imagine you are in a shopping mall...
Maybe you have something in mind.. maybe you don't..
maybe you know which store you want to go .. maybe you don't..
maybe you are tight on time.. and just need to get the thing you need, maybe you don't..
maybe you have a budget .. maybe you don't..

There's just so many possibilities of what things could happen. and how..

Keep yourself open.
Know what you have.
Be prepared
so that when the opportunity comes,
when you see the needs,
when you hear the call,
you are ready for it.
...

How's life "planning"? .. maybe similar in some way?..

Enjoy the shopping.

June 2

2011-06-02T22:17:00.000-07:00

I thought today's June 1. so when I read the Bible today following the TWA table, I read the ones for June 1. And I right away noticed that.. that's what I read yesterday... I thought to myself.. how come yesterday I read today's? (I still thought today was June 1) ...

and somehow I screwed up the system date of my computer... so it sent out email with the time stamp of June 3. (and i am not sure.. but I have the feeling that.. those emails haven't been sent to the recipients yet.. instead, the recipients will receive them tomorrow June 3 at the time same as the time stamp. )

so this is my June 2 with a big confusion with the date.

June 1

2011-06-01T18:00:00.000-07:00

June 1...
Eunice's Birthday.

The mid point of 2011...

Quote for today:

We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give.

~ Winston Churchill

and.. I am sick at home.. =\
Getting better.
nice half day off. =p

It's a beautiful day.

2011-05-30T16:33:00.000-07:00

It's a beautiful day - Sherman Chung

熟悉的花店渗着香气昨天应该很刺鼻
路边的光景我从不理却察觉有份明媚
难堪别离迟归晚起因信奉缺憾美交上了伤悲
沉溺后期能吃不味一瞬直觉赠我重生的勇气
It's A Beautiful Day 我竟不知
It's A Beautiful Day 验证一次
雨后阳光的意义微笑过日子
It's A Beautiful Day 换上新衣
It's A Beautiful Day 别再失意
制造人间的美事才算有大志
人观入微有惊有喜
于碎事细部里找到了心机
留些日期游览天地
阴雨亦觉是美才可找到你
It's A Beautiful Day 我竟不知
It's A Beautiful Day 验证一次
雨后阳光的意义微笑过日子
It's A Beautiful Day 这里开始
It's A Beautiful Day 没有终止
这是奇迹的意义 微笑里会意
In Every Way, Enjoy The Day

2011-05-29T08:33:00.001-07:00

ARGH!

2011-05-25T01:13:00.000-07:00

sigh... very annoyed..
I am hoping that after i said this out... I will feel more peace ..
then I will be able to sleep...

This is one of the ways to release stress eh?... by saying things out instead of keeping them all inside?...

but.. I think.. all I can say is that.. I am very annoyed...
Am I feeling better now?...
seems be..a little bit.

very tired..
go to bed now.

Blessings

2011-05-21T15:28:00.000-07:00

Blessings - Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

*Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

What if my greatest disappointments

Or the aching of this life

Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy

And what if trials of this life

The rain, the storms, the hardest nights

Are Your mercies in disguise

Value Village..

2011-05-19T22:13:00.000-07:00

have been passing by so many times...
wondered if it's like the other dollar stores...

went inside the other day..
and found that .. it's a whole different world.

they don't sell items for one dollar... they mainly sell used items at a "low" price.
There are books. clothes.. music disks... household items.. sports items..
most of those items look quite old ...like some of the toasters...already looking rusty and stained....
I did doubt that if they would still work...
for the clothes, they were quite cheap.. some were like $5.. but also, they did look old and "old fashioned" ... i believe though they were still in good quality.

They might be donated because their old owners thought they were of no more value..
they wanted to replace them with newer ones .. better ones..
...

people who shop there.. maybe they are not like us who can afford what we can afford.
they afford what they can.
...
reminding me of this....
知足,
常樂.

Up

2011-05-17T20:21:00.000-07:00

I have finished my first bottle of red wine..
and I decided I can't afford it any more.

I have been "down" for long enough.

I need to get back up and "shine" again. haha

the same ..

2011-05-05T20:55:00.000-07:00

It's still the same route going back from work....
It's still the same sky..
It's about the same time...

...
..

I am going home..

When everything falls apart....

2011-04-26T10:25:00.000-07:00

Keep holding on...

Still You Love Me

2011-04-23T07:56:00.000-07:00

Still You Love Me - Chris Sligh

such a person I am...
You still love me...

Sun Run 2011

2011-04-14T23:14:00.000-07:00

yea...
got my T-shirt and bib today ...
for Sun Run.
numbered 55552. There are gonna be so many ppl!

The Vancouver Sun Run’s primary mandate is to promote health, fitness and community spirit and to support amateur athletics. While the Sun Run is not designated as a charity event, over $1.74 million in proceeds from the Sun Run have been donated to important causes since 1985.

This is my first time participating. I selected to be the walker. my start time would be the latest..maybe at 9:30am... but will be there early and see if it's possible to start at a earlier time. I might just do a mix of running and walking ... and .. jogging?! =p

Worship on the Run!

The unexpected ... expected

2011-04-10T07:49:00.000-07:00

"too much brain activity" ...
couldn't sleep last night... though I was already exhausted..
I guess things just happened too fast ... too quickly... It's expected that it would happen ... some day. But it's unexpected that it just happened.

Before I moved out... I was prepared for the day.. where the house would be sold. It is now. Uncle and Aunt came back from HK in early March, earlier than they used to. The will be leaving here for HK in early May, much earlier than they used to. They won't be coming back in half a year like they used to.. Those are one-way tickets they bought. ... Here's a good news. They will be seeing their Grand Daughter born in HK in early June.

2 weeks ago, I heard from them that they had put the house on sale. Somehow, I was a little bit "shocked".. (I found it a bit sudden.) and due to the time constraint (that they are leaving in early May), they can only have the house in the market for 2 weeks. If it's not sold without the 2 weeks, they would keep it... I doubted the possibility that it would be sold. so I was prepared myself to have a little mowing fun in the summer, though they said they would hire a lawn care service... Even though I knew there were offers.. I still doubted it... since the prices weren't my Uncle expected. I guess I have underestimated the "charm" of the house. .. Some decided to make a higher offer and ... they got it. There were house inspection... and I heard they complained about something and asked for a shared payment for a repair... my Uncle and Aunt refused and suggested they would just not sell it if that's the case. I guess.. in some way, Uncle and Aunt are really not wanting to sell it... but... they just have to...

I got an "unexpected" email on Friday morning. It's from my cousin in HK. She told me that the house was sold ... my first reaction.. feelings.. not good. I have been here the whole time.. I know all the back and forth .. I know how the entire thing moves.. but at that moment, I found myself refuse to accept the fact. I haven't prepared myself for that moment... why? ... I am not living there any more.. It's never my house... ?... .... but...... I have been part of it for so long too...

In the email, cousin asked me a favor, that is, to take care of her stuff, the most important ones that she really couldn't let go of. I guess she would like to move all stuff back to HK if possible.. Last year when she came back here, she's already packed something and asked if I could look after them some day... I couldn't forget that .. she's sobbing in her bedroom a few times one night.. .... and She videotaped the house late at night when others were apparently sleeping.. she's talking to herself (in the video) what is what... I "caught" her.. when i went to kitchen for something to eat..

Yesterday, I went yum cha with Uncle and Aunt. We talked about the house.. and the stuff in the house... and In the afternoon, we spent the time .. moving some of the stuff from the house to my place. They gave me a lot of useful stuff.. and they have carefully moved my cousin's stuff to my place and made sure they are properly stored.

Last night, I got another email from my cousin.. she told me that she's negotiating with her Mom to keep their long-time collections from different places.. but her Mom/Aunt refused. I didn't take those yesterday.. Even though they were beautiful, interesting little things.. I figured I would not have place for them.. I didn't consider how much they could mean for my cousin.. In fact, my Aunt and Uncle had asked me a few times whether I would like to have them... I guess.. they would want keep them too... they would like to see them again .. some day in the future...
Yea. I will keep them.

Things are unexpected.. and they become expected.
Things are expected... and ... they become unexpected.

Believe this. ..
Things ... are gonna be ok.

New member In the house

2011-04-03T22:33:00.000-07:00

Welcome....

Tah duh..

Let me introduce to you, Green Bobo!

We will have some pretty serious road trip soon... if the weather allows. ... =p

Back to December...

2011-04-01T21:39:00.000-07:00

Cant believe I actually listened to the lyrics for once!!!!!! ^^

我...

2011-03-30T18:09:00.000-07:00

not feeling well today.. so went home during noon...
felt better at 3.. but felt too tired to go back to work.. so just staying at home...

There's a lot at work waiting for me... I have my own stuff to do... some need my help to continue their work.... but I can't help it now... until tomorrow...(feeling bad...)

...
life lately seems to be pretty normal.?..
...called grandma last night... and... she said she's not feeling well.. and asked me to say if anything to say... she kept saying that... and I didn't know how to respond and what to say. .. so she just hung on me.
...thought of quite a lot of things that's happened in my childhood... the earliest moment I remember is where I was sliding "downhill" with my feet on a pair of "4-wheel" roller blades (so called "shik keg")...
When i was back to Shenzhen during Chinese New Year.... I visited my old home place... where i was born into .. and grew up in... That place used to be so big .. to me (because i was small?) .. now it's become so small... old and broken... People there are different too.. the ones who used to live there have moved... the ones who are living there now... even speak a different dialect...

... thinking of my family... is bitter sweet..
... thinking of my childhood... is bitter sweet.

what about now..

if you don't understand me 平時的我... don't even know what I say is true or not, when I am being serious or just joking...maybe i do that on purpose... maybe i just don't want you to understand... because... i don't want to understand either..

If one day I am completely "naked" in front of you... ... will you ... still.. ...

下一個我 The Next Me - 炎亞綸

愛在天地動搖時

2011-03-29T13:40:00.001-07:00

愛在天地動搖時 - Janice

主唱：衛蘭
作曲：吳國敬
填詞：黃偉文
編曲：雷頌德
監製：雷頌德

機關槍猛開　天花板炸開
你覺得很憤慨　世間許多妄災
飛機衝向山　高山倒向海
你也許不再信有愛
你在吻靠著愛繼續帶路有沒有未來
你在吻後劫若襲來　可否不算愛

就算用愛抵擋不了這天災
但信念可將悲傷都化開
就算沒法驅走感慨
至少不給他淹蓋
明明受挫都想堅忍到痛也繼續愛

想起所愛的　想起失去的
你那麼想發洩　你不甘心放開
仿佛一放開　逼真的痛哀　
那記憶失去了要塞
你在恨要用愛替代報復確實太笨呆
你在恨面對著壞人應該怎去愛

就算用愛抵擋不了這天災
但信念可將悲傷都化開
就算沒法驅走感慨
至少不給他淹蓋
傍徨亂世可否經一劫引發更多愛

就算用愛抵擋不了這天災
學會諒解總可瀟灑看開
沒法盛載洶湧感慨
至少不給他淹蓋
留傳後世　應該不只要有更多愛

Earth Hour March 26, 2011

2011-03-26T11:13:00.000-07:00

Sleep early..

2011-03-25T01:05:00.000-07:00

I guess I am trying to sleep early... (like before 12)
but I haven't been able to manage to do that..
For one, I think I would've wasted some time in sleeping (if I go to bed when I am not even sleepy.. ) but in fact, I waste time staying up most of the time...
For two, I actually feel/felt kinda "Boring" if I go to bed "too early"(before 12) ...
but anyways.. i am trying to go to bed before 12.. so i can get up early in the morning like around 7 and go to work.. then I will be able to get off work early like around 5 ... then I know I will find myself "having more time" to spend/use/live...

OK. (maybe the weekends can be exempted .. haha)

normal human being

2011-03-23T01:19:00.000-07:00

after all... i am just a normal human being..
I have my emotions..
I have my needs.. and desires
I have my limitations..
...
there doesn't seem to be much.. but actually there's a lot going on.. physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually... I am not good at handling so much... the mental part alone is already overwhelming. Good thing is all parts compliment each other. .. but now i guess.. it's the low point of all... I am physically tired. emotionally flat, mentally messy, and spiritually insensitive. That's a very good indication for me that my body, heart, mind and soul needs rest.

so... good night.

Fear? .. Faith!

2011-03-19T23:04:00.000-07:00

I have never been in a situation where I am so desperate ..for food.. for clothes... for any physical needs.. I am just so much blessed..

30 hour famine gave me an opportunity to feel what "hunger" could be like? ... there, you always know that you will be able to get a hearty meal after the 30 hours... and you know you will be able to have a hot shower / bath, whatever you want after the night over in the camp... you have something to look forward to.. and you are sure of it.
....
I really can't imagine.. how much fear people are experiencing in Japan or in the surrounding cities.. which are so close to Japan.. where radiation leaks might reach.... and cause all kinds of problems to human health.. or the lands.. where people might have so much fear and still have more fear to look forward to?.. maybe I am really not in the position to say whether it's crazy of them to start stocking up items like.. salt... etc. ... I could be one of them if I were there in where they live.. would I? ...

My Faith could be paper thin... when Fear arises..
but the only thing that can combat and defeat Fear, is Faith.
isn't it? ...

I can easily be paralyzed.. by insecurities.. by worries.. by uncertainties....by failure....
so easily..
and when everything gets to the core. It's Fear.
... that reminds of this song..

Walk on the water - Britt Nicole

There are those who willingly offer up their lives for more lives.
Jesus did.
Many others followed His steps.
They had fear of death.....
They had Hope for more.

...
Have Faith in Him!

Rediscover You - Starfield

2011-03-18T22:41:00.000-07:00

I guess we're crazy about Starfield these days...

Do you admit your faith is paper thin?
Do you admit the passion is gone?

LET'S REDISCOVER HIM :

The Saving One

2011-03-16T12:51:00.001-07:00

The Saving One - Starfiled

What mercy was revealed
What selflessness and peace
My fate was surely sealed
Until He rescued me
His pardon for my sin
His bounty for my need
From slavery and shame
I am redeemed

And Heaven can't contain
The glory of the Son
Jesus is the Christ, the saving One
His love has made a way
The grave is overcome
Jesus is the Christ, the saving One

No fear can hold me down
Nor darkness steal my joy
For blood has been poured out
The enemy destroyed
Death could not hold Him down
The cross was not enough
To steal away His throne
For He is God

And Heaven can't contain
The glory of the Son
Jesus is the Christ, the saving One
His love has made a way
The grave is overcome
Jesus is the Christ, the saving One

Anyone who calls upon His name
They will be saved
They will be saved
Anyone who calls upon His name
They will be saved
They will be saved

And Heaven can't contain
The glory of the Son
Jesus is the Christ, the saving One
His love has made a way
The grave is overcome
Jesus is the Christ, the saving One [x2]

Anyone who calls upon His name
They will be saved
They will be saved
Anyone who calls upon His name
They will be saved
They will be saved

Red sky.

2011-03-15T01:30:00.000-07:00

I was too tired yesterday... Although i tried to watch the movie.. I just dozed off in the sofa shortly i started it... so.. I just went to bed..
Only when it became so quiet, I realized it was so stormy outside.. The winds were growling... I opened the window in my bedroom and looked outside. It 's really gusting winds mixing with rain....It was late.. ppl were sleeping.. there's no lights in any of the houses I saw.. I looked towards the direction where the water/river/sea is... where i saw a red sky... It was a bit scary...

I was a bit scared... imagining the possibility of a Tsunami...

Thinking.. of Japan.... and I thought of this..
This is His Body .. His Blood..

在苦難當中，愛要得勝
在傷痕當中，發現盼望
在死亡當中，涌出新的生命

... pray for Japan.

eh

2011-03-13T23:25:00.000-07:00

I have been doing .... "odd" silly? things ..

I called my Grandma's at 3 am last night... (6pm there time).. so it was dinner time for them.. my Grandma should be in the living room.. waiting for or having dinner already.. so there's more chance she would answer the phone.. and. I was just surprised that the one who answered the phone was my sis-in-law. ... then the phone was passed to my Mom... then, I knew .. my Dad and Mom and Bro and sis-in-law were all at Grandma's place for dinner.. I was surprised.. because I really don't think that happens too often that they are there .. but I am happy that they were. well.... they all urged me to go sleep..

I didn't have dinner till 10:30pm tonight... after coming back from Restoration worship.. well... I became a bit dizzy.. after the prayer after the Holy Communion... They had huge-Tapioca Taro sugar water for dessert tonight.. but yea I skipped it.. and came home .. once the program was finished. .. I couldn't believe it was already 10:20pm when i saw the time in my car..

Here I am now... i made myself some noodles..and ate it... very full. and just begin the movie "A Good Year".. watching it by myself. I haven't showered yet.. and I am tired and sleepy... but yea I have just started to watch a movie... (like i don't need to work tomorrow.. ) hahaa

You Are

2011-03-13T18:57:00.001-07:00

You Are - Jason Castro

too lazy

2011-03-11T00:18:00.000-08:00

I think i am just being too lazy lately..
too lazy!

I haven't been going to Sunday school.. these days.. For one, it's the middle of the series.. kinda waiting for another series to start? For another, I had always been late ... and I will probably be late again if i ever go again..? hahaha... like's what's wrong with me? .. being such an unpunctual person. Maybe I do need some discipline like what Awana Club would do for those who are late.. ? ... but.. i don't think I have treated Sunday School too seriously ?.. I usually just went there and listened.. I didn't write any notes... not even mention to review what's learned ... well.. i did think during the class.. and pondered about God... and His words.. but just not too much about "Geography" and "History" ...? yea ... a selective listener and thinker.. I am.... but God made the world and time... well...

I don't do much after work.. sometimes it gets pretty late when i get home... usually i just quickly make some udon.. and choi and fish balls.. put together a small "hotpot" dinner.. eat.. and watch TV... Now.. my Uncle and Aunt are back from HK.. if i am not going out for dinner.. i just go to their home for dinner.. and watch TV at their place .. and go home until.. kinda late.. .. maybe... because work is too busy.. i just desire some rests after work... ?

There's a lot .. i know i should do.. and i need to do... but... i am just too lazy... or I just don't care?... Tell me that I don't care about baking... ?
Tell me that I don't care about my family...?
Tell me that I don't care about my friends... my brothers and sisters.. ?
Tell me that I don't care about church ...?
... I don't care about others... ?
... I don't care about God...?

Not that I don't...
Maybe I do.... and on the edge..
freaking out...